2 Years, 2 Months and 21 Days (or 812 days)
2 Years, 2 Months and 21 Days.
or 812 days,
or 70,156,800 seconds,
or 1,169,280 minutes,
or 19,488 hours,
or 116 weeks.
That is how long it is since I last posted here.
Well, it is a while since i have posted here and almost as long since i have even bothered to read any of the emails on here. For almost the last 2 years I have travelled well. No problems, feeling great, on top of the world. I was in a mental position to be able to manage all that life has thrown at me, and in the past 2 years that has been quite a bit. My relationship with my wife is better than it has ever been and in 6 weeks we celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary. My career is going really well with some fantastic achievements.
In the past few weeks it has all changed. My equilibrium has been totally rocked and my control over the balance in my life has been destroyed. I have always believed strongly that I have control over everything in my life, but now it is out of control. I have met an amazing man who I have totally fallen for. We met a number of time now and enjoy each others company. And while we have not had sex, the time we have together is emotional and wonderful.Yesterday we spent the day together and had a great time.
The feelings I have for this man is quite different than i have ever felt before for anyone. I felt devastated yesterday when our time had come and I had to return to the reality of my life. He does not know that I am married and I don’t know how he will react when I do tell him. I will tell him early in the New Year and I suppose how he reacts then may determine many things.
I don’t know why I have decided to write this today, but I suppose I was hoping that someone would know what it feels like to be in this position.
The worst part is realising that I am not able to control everything and that I am not now in control.
